I suposed not to confess, so I hide. It built my character, make me not suposed to expressed my feeling. Still, there're some natural thing that would express my feeling, even I don't want it.
I do feel that kind of feeling, and I could only hold it. I always think there is another one, or there is next. But I skip so many, I skip everything I have felt for. And... should I skip this one? The one that I couldn't admit?
I couldn't even say anything about that one. I couldn't even be near him, or I'll act weird. I couldn't hear his voice, or my mind will become confusing. I couldn't see his face, or my face will become so hot. And everyone would told me that my face all red. I couldn't even talk to him, because I hate it. All he said and ask to me is about my last crush, and I'm gonna say that I'm not into him anymore! All of above, I couldn't even think about him, or I'll become speechless.
I just wondering, what kind of love did you going to call it?
But everything above will dissapeared if I found someone that like him too. This is the second reason why I ever stoped my feeling for him. I'll retreat, and let them. How to say that? I do like him, but no way I could ever compete with them. I always think they were better than me. It's not like I have no confident, but... I always want the best for him, even if I'm not include.
But the truth is, I just didn't know how does he think about me. So I'll retreat, yeah.
